Monday, November 23, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
No, I have not forgotten to update, Nathan has been in such a deep coma, the past week, there has not been much to update. He did VERY well in his surgery, the trachea is placed and when he wakes up completely out of his coma, he most likely will not be thrilled about that! He has become very responsive, as of last night. When James told him that he and I have been going up to see him everyday, Nathan opened his eyes and started crying. This is a great sign.
Nate is responding, slowly...and that is a miracle. Bethany was told on the night of the accident, to basically say goodbye to her son~ and today, Nate is waking from his coma, and responding in the correct manner. You cannot tell me that is not a miracle. You cannot tell me that God doesn't have a plan for Nathans life! James and I just cry and cry, knowing God has been in total control. It is so amazing to see and experience.
The Sunday morning of Nate's accident, James and I were heading to church. We saw Nate driving his VW bug, and it was FREEZING outside. At the stoplight, I rolled down my window and said "Natey, put your seat belt on and why do you have your windows down. Roll them up and turn your heat on." He laughed and wanted to race us up the on ramp, which...if you any of you know James and Nathan, we did indeed race. Any excuse for those two guys going fast, they take full advantage of it! We miss our friend, BUT we also believe Nathan will return after his rehabilitation time, better than ever!
Nate is SUCH a survivor and his journey so far, has CHANGED Our Lives. Just the fact that Nathan was hit by an SUV, thrown 30-50 feet and is STILL ALIVE~ GOD HAS A PLAN! We serve a MIGHTY GOD! If you don't know this, I pray with my whole heart you will one day come to know Him, intimately!
The doctors and Bethany call James and I, Nate's "chosen brother and sister." I laugh at this because Nathan hasn't ever had a sister, and to have me as his sister, well....maybe he should call my brother, Chad, for a few pointers! ha! We have always treated each other like brother and sister, and I am honored to call him my brother. we promised Nathan we would stand by him as he begins this journey ahead. No matter how hard that is, we will be his biggest fans. We know full well, he would do the same thing for us.
I hope all of you who do not know Nathan, will one day get to hear his story. I cant wait until he is awake enough to hear that hundreds and thousands of people across the Nation are praying for him! What an AMAZING thought. God is doing miracles in his life, and to be apart of HIS work...WOW!
As Nathan continues to wake from his coma, I will update you more frequently. Still no visitors, because of his bacterial infection. Once he is moved to the rehabilitation center in a few months, will be a good time to see him.
He is breaking odds and proving doctors wrong, everyday with his great improvement! He is showing fantastic signs of living a normal and FULL life! He is young, and his future is looking bright! God is good, we give HIM all the glory! We love you Nate, and continue to plead for a full recovery!
"o, My people, trust in HIM at all times, pour your heart to Him, for God is our refuge."
Monday, November 9, 2009
James is getting all of his snowmobiles ready for the season. Nathan was working on his, before the accident. James is going to complete the work and let him know, next year...it will be waiting for him! We truly believe Nathan WILL be riding next year.
Please pray for Nathan, as he is in surgery. This surgery will last about 2 hours and 45 minutes. As he began surgery, he was peaceful and stable. God is in control. we are trusting and resting in His MIGHTY plans for Nathan Dominique Dill Christiansen
Ephesians 1:18 "I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the wonderful future He has promised to those He called. I want you to realize what a rich and glorious inheritance He has given to His people."
Saturday, November 7, 2009
God is chasing after Nathan, just as He chases each of our lives. HE IS ABLE!
Everyday when I get to go visit Nathan, God speaks to me. In the silence of just sitting, watching my 'brother' breath, God whispers "be still, and know I AM God." Psalm 46:10 Every time we weep after watching him struggle, I am reminded that God is our strength. Nathan is a fighter, and God is in total control. We just need to PRAY and SEEK Gods face, as we wait.
Be still....and KNOW...I AM, GOD! What a promise. What an incredible promise! Please continue to pray for Nathans injuries and future. He is alive, and for that, we are REJOICING! Thank you God. We love our friend, and will fight with him until the end.
Exodus 14:14 (New Living Translation)
The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.”
This verse stood out to me. JUST STAY CALM! He is fighting this for Nathan. We are to rest, be still, let go, and allow God to be...GOD.
Nate, we love you. you are doing so well. We know your future holds great things, we will be here for you every step of the way.
Friday, November 6, 2009
This morning, I was able to go and sit with Bethany as the Doctors examined Nathan. He is still very sedated, and was resting peacefully. Right now, we really need to pray for the brain injury, to be minimal. They are predicting that there is frontal lobe trauma.
He was able to connect with my voice, and he even responded to more nurses last night. These are all positive signs. We are cautiously optimistic and trying to be positive, not knowing Nathans injuries. They will not be able to know the extent of his injuries/future until Nathan is fully awake, and responding to every effort the Doctors are making with him.
Nathan is a fighter, we are praying over him at every opportunity that is given to us. They have stopped giving him ALL sedation medication, as of today. He will be more responsive within the next week. I will update you more after our evening visit with Nathan.
Please continue to cover Nathan in your prayers, prayer chains and church communities. We rest in the HOPE that only GOD gives. His word is the LAMP as Nathan wakes from this tragic accident!
My encouragement for us all today...This verse has encouraged me, and I DRAW MY STRENGTH AND HOPE KNOWING I SERVE A GOD WHO KNOWS MORE, AND WILL TAKE CARE OF EVERY DETAIL...ALL WE ARE TO DO IS REMAIN FAITHFUL...BE ENCOURAGED, EVERYONE!
"my thoughts are completely different than your thoughts;" says the Lord. And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and My thoughts higher than your thoughts."
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Good Morning everyone!
James and I were able to go and stay with Nathan, late last night. He had just settled down, from struggling with his nurse. Most likely, Nathan does not know what is going on. You can imagine what he may be going through; waking up having tubes taped to your face, mouth, nose, wrists. He is strapped down (his wrists are tied down to the bed) because when patients wake up, they usually want to rip the tubes out of themselves. He most likely will have no idea where he is or what has happened to him. When we went into the room with Nate, he looked really peaceful. He is still on life support, but they are continually weening him off of it. I will tell you all that the nurse last night was very optimistic about Nathans future. We are unable to know the full extent of Nathans brain injury/damage until he is completely out of his coma. Again, this is a marathon not a sprint. The rehabilitation will be a lengthy journey for Nate, but we are praying that his injuries are minimal. God knows Nathans future, and as James and I were praying over him last night, I felt such peace. I came back and told Bethany last night, that I just feel God is going to do something incredible with Nathans story. James and I hate seeing our friend hurt and struggle, but as we told Nathan, we are not going anywhere. We know this is going to be a very long journey, but we are in it for as long as it takes.
Please pray that Nathan is able to get into Craig Hospital. Craig Hospital is one of the best, if not the best rehabilitation centers for brain and spinal injury patients, in America. James and I spoke to Tiffany (a nurse at Craig) last night, and she was able to give us some really good information. Please pray for God to open an opportunity for Nathan to one day enter Craig hospital. It is not an easy task and we are really praying he will be accepted to ONE DAY, when he is healed enough to enter Craig.
Also, please continue to lift up Bethany. Nathan is her only child, and she has no family here in Colorado. She has a strong group of friends, and support groups. As you can imagine it is very difficult for Bethany to leave Nathan and get good rest at night. Sleep is VERY important right now, she desperately needs to rest.
I will update you all after our visit later today. Trusting and hoping for Gods hand to continue to heal, restore and prepare Nathan for what is to come.
I was reading this verse this morning, and wanted to encourage you all with it. Please pray for Nathan as he wakes (this can take up to another week or so) to understand that he is going to be ok and is in a safe place. He seemed very scared yesterday afternoon, which is totally normal. But, as you can imagine, it is difficult to watch. God is in TOTAL control and we are trusting His perfect plan. He is faithful, and His mercies are new every morning! Thank you, God!
"As for me, I look to the Lord for His help. I wait CONFIDENTLY for God to save me, and My God WILL certainly hear me. Do not gloat over me, my enemies! For though I fall I will rise again. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord Himself will be my light."
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I want to share a personal story with you that happened this morning. Right when I got to the hospital, the respiratory therapist was in with him. After he was done examining Nate, I walked into the room and over to Nathans side. I leaned into his face, only inches away. I said " Nate, its Kimmie. I am here with you. Can you hear me? Open your eyes buddy, its Kimmie." Nathan OPENED HIS EYES, looked at me and began to cry. This was SO special to me. NATHAN KNEW I WAS THERE. He totally knew who I was, and that is a GREAT sign. He is acknowledging his own name, as well. God is so good, this is a HUGE sign, A BIG SIGN! Nathan also recognizes Bethany and James' voice, it was so special to connect with him...especially knowing, he is recognizing our voices. I told him I was there and James and I were visiting him everyday. Nathan opened his eyes, once more and began to cry. I told him he was going to be ok. That we were praying for him and that EVERYONE was praying!
James and I are going back up there tonight, I will update you all with anything new that happened today!
God is good. He is near!
We love you Nate
We found out that the driver whom hit Nathan (who was NOT at fault) as he was trying to cross the street, drove an SUV. For Nathan to be ALIVE and without ANY broken bones etc, is a miracle. I have been reading about Jesus' life in the bible this past week, and everywhere He was people were changed. I was telling Bethany, late last night, that I feel God is using Nathan to bring people to him. I also believe that God only gives us as much as we can handle. Nathans accident not take God by surprise. although it has been one of the most difficult things to see and experience just WATCHING Nathan struggle take a breath, I believe with everything I am that God has a special plan for Nathans life. Nathan has a strong heart, he is an INCREDIBLE giving friend, and I cant wait to remind him of that. I am about to go up to be with him and Bethany as the Neurosurgeon makes his rounds, and examines Nathan. They gave Nate an anti anxiety medication last night, as he is beginning to wake....he most likely, will want to take all of his tubes/IV etc. out...he probably will have no idea what is going on. KEEP PRAYING!
Yesterday, I was able to spend some really good time talking with Bethany, while Nathan started to 'come to.' Nathan has began to raise his right arm off the bed, he also has began to open and close his eyes. He is still VERY sedated and will probably have absolutely no idea where he is, once he wakes up. The Doctors have warned us of that. Nathans CAT scans and MRI's are reading as though there IS indeed an injury. There is also signs of oxygen deprivation, which leads us down a path of the unknown. We will not know the extent of Nathans injuries, until he is completely conscience and the medical team is able to do more tests. SOME GOOD NEWS: Nathan has responded to his name, meaning, When we call his name out, he will look in the direction of the voice calling. THIS IS GOOD NEWS! As of now, we are PRAYING the injuries are minimal, but EITHER WAY, Nathan is ALIVE and we are REJOICING in his life! Thank you, God! No matter what the future holds for Nathan, we have promised him we will support every step, hurdle, bad day, good day...to come!
He will also spend his after treatment at Craig Hospital. This is also good news. Craig Hospital is an incredible rehabilitation center, and Nathan will get EXCELLENT care there. We have been told that most likely, Nathan will need to learn some of his cognitive skills all over again. Also, they are predicting some damage to his nervous system.
Ok. I need to leave to go see Nate and Bethany. I will update as soon as I get back. THANK YOU ALL FOR PRAYING...THESE NEXT 5-10 days are VERY critical for our prayers!!!
God is good. He is with Nathan. He is ABLE.
I hope this verse brings you encouragement.
And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."
Monday, November 2, 2009
Today. The doctors did not give out the best news. The Neurologist finds that Nathans brain has suffered from lack of oxygen. They have found some things on his CAT scans and MRI that are just not matching up. His ICP levels continue to roller-coaster, but Nathan is remaining stable. Please pray for him, the doctors are telling us this is just a waiting period. We have to keep going day by day. Nathan's grandma had to go back to Louisiana today. Bethany needs a strong support system, while Nathan continues to be in his coma. Bethany is trying to get all of Nathan's medical records from Montana and here in Denver, but is having difficulty because of Nathan's age. We are praying she is granted power of attorney over Nathan, as he is in his coma. The medical team needs to examine all of his past records.MRI's/CAT scans and compare them with last weeks accident. The things that are now showing up on the tests are just not making sense.
In church yesterday, my mind was just racing.
We spend so much time judging other people, that we miss out seeing "rawness"/ inmost being of the people around us. we are so worried about what people think, that we are seriously missing out on life~What it truly means to LIVE. I don't want to miss out anymore. I don't care what that looks like, or what the cost is. I know this journey is not easy, but it is worth every moment.
After church, I was telling James how God is just moving. I can see Him and feel Him. He and I have literally seen God in ways that we could never put into words. Seeing Nathan has been very difficult. Not knowing the future has been even more difficult, but God never seizes to amaze us with His presence. It is truly unexplainable.
Being around Bethany, has brought this all to light. Seeing her passion and commitment to God and Nathan, moves us to do the same. I know God takes our "MESS" and makes it something beautiful. I believe with every fiber in my body, that is EXACTLY what God is doing with Nathans life and I am confident He desires to do the same in ours.
Yesterday, I was able to visit with Bethany for over an hour. It was incredible to see the love and commitment she continues to have for Nathan. The love of a mother, is unexplainable. Please continue to pray for her. It is so difficult to see Nathan (especially being her son) in the state he is. They continue to keep him looking good, shaved/bathed etc. He really does look more and more like himself, each day.
Nathan had a really rough night, last night. He pulled through and remained stable, but this road is not smooth, yet. At this point, Nathan is progressing at the rate they have predicted. He will continue to 'come to' as the days progress. We really need to pray that Nathan remains stable. He is still on life-support, and will remain on it for as long as needed.
With a brain trauma patient things could go either way. We need to keep praying God protects Nathans brain, from any more trauma or possible damage.
Nathans Neurosurgeon examined his CAT SCANS and MRI, once again, and he HAS indeed detected some brain injury. They believe that Nathan suffered this injury back in 2003, when he had his car accident. The doctors predict that Nathans doctors overlooked the injury. This explains a lot to the doctors, but puts a bump in the road. As we all know, Doctors are NOT perfect. They make mistakes, but in this case there are many different neurologists investigating this new discovery. Although, this is NOT the news we were expecting, we are still hopeful. Nathan has lived over a week, when they told us he would not make it through the night. His ICP levels are up and down, but that is expected.
With this new discovery, we are asking you all to pray. Please continue praying for God to work and heal Nathans injuries. Also, please pray for Bethany, as this news was not what anyone wanted to receive.
As I spent sometime with Bethany yesterday, her faith was powerful. Remember, Nathan is her only son, and this is his second time on life support. I cannot imagine being a mother, being helpless in a time of such desperation. She is turning to God, and has a Faith that moves mountains. God is in total control, and we continue to rest in that!
We will keep you updated as far as Nathans consciousness level, and also with this new brain injury discovery.
Thank you for your support and prayers. They are felt and needed. I will update later, after our visit.
My hope this morning...
"Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him and He will help you."
Sunday, November 1, 2009
We are still rejoicing in Nathans recovery process and healing that continues to occur in his body. As of this morning, Nathan is stable and remains on life-support. I don't want to lose focus that Nathan was hit by a car, and still has a long road ahead of him. God is a healer, and we have seen HIS hand in Nathans injury. What a mighty God we serve. I want to thank everyone for your earnest prayers. We believe God has heard and is responding. Remember, we are not out of the clear, yet.
To date Nate's CAT Scans and MRI show no brain damage! This is a miracle, only possible by God! The neurologist said yesterday that prior to placing him in the deepest drug induced coma possible - to protect his brain for the pressure that the monitors were registering - that based on the readings of these medical tests Nathan should of been sitting up, talking to us, and walking around. The neurologist wants to see Nate's medical records from his past accident to see if there might be any signs of damage to his Autonomic Nervous System that was not detected in the 2003 trauma. As I stated yesterday, they have stopped giving him the drug that induces coma. They anticipate he will be experiencing some level of consciousness by the end of the week. They will put a trachea in this throat and a feeding tube in his stomach early this week.The trauma surgeon is researching the possibility of going in and redoing the original surgery that repaired his throat from the 2003 accident. The goal would be to repair the epiglottis so it seals off 100% of the time verses 75% of the time as it does now. This would make things so much easier for Nathan. He will be able to swallow food so much easier than he currently does. Also, I think he will be most excited to breathe easier, especially in high elevations..aka. SNOWMOBILING! Most of you all know what a passion snowmobiling is for James. It is also a love of Nathan's life, as well. We are praying next year, he will be shredding the Rocky mountains, along with James, Mat and the rest of the crew!
The nurse cautioned yesterday that everything could take a turn for the worse in an instant during this process. He was encouraging to be cautiously optimistic. We are SO thankful for the AMAZING medical attention Nathan is receiving. We remain cautious and aware that things are not promised to us, but REJOICE because God is in control. He is holding Nathan, and we rest peacefully in that. Please continue to drench Nathan with your prayers, We are lifting him all throughout the day. Thank you for agreeing and joining us in this long fight and journey with Nate!
Natey, Jp and I miss you so much. You look great, and are the strongest fighter we know. We love you. keep fighting. we are praying for you...thousands are praying....for you!!! God has such a plan for you life.Matthew 18:19 (the message)
Take this most seriously: A yes on earth is yes in heaven; a no on earth is no in heaven. What you say to one another is eternal. I mean this. When two of you get together on anything at all on earth and make a prayer of it, my Father in heaven goes into action. And when two or three of you are together because of me, you can be sure that I'll be there."
Saturday, October 31, 2009
OUR PRAYERS HAVE BEEN HEARD. GOD HAS HEALED HIM AND HE IS GOING TO LIVE~AND LIVE A FULL LIFE! THANK YOU, LORD. I AM SOBBING AS I WRITE THIS, GOOSEBUMPS ARE ALL OVER MY BODY! THANK YOU GOD!!!!!
NATHAN STILL HAS A LONG ROAD AHEAD, BUT FROM THE MEDICAL STANDPOINT...HE HAS NO BRAIN DAMAGE AND SHOULD RECOVER FULLY!!!!!!!!
GOD HAS SWEPT THROUGH, HEARD OUR CRY'S AND HAS GIVEN NATHAN ANOTHER CHANCE AT LIFE!
NATE, WE HAVE FOUGHT WITH YOU. PRAYED OVER YOU...AND WILL CONTINUE TO. WE LOVE YOU. GOD HAS BIG THINGS WAITING FOR YOU....
KEEP PRAYING, GOD IS GOOD. I WILL UPDATE YOU THIS EVENING!!!!
"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10
Good morning, everyone!
Last night James came home from work, woke me to let me know he was going to the hospital to sit with Nathan. It was about 1AM, and I was a bit nervous that something was wrong. James is good at protecting my heart~ but he assured me that he just felt he needed to go pray and talk with him. James spent sometime praying and talking with Nate. He said the nurses told him he was doing well. James also said he was still in a very deep coma, but they were going to allow his body to come out of it on its own, from here on out.
Since Nathans accident, I have been yearning for God to come and move in a way that is unexplainable. To literally sweep through Nathans room, and embrace his body. I truly believe He did, on Thursday night while James and I were praying over Nate. I know that this all may seem a bit nuts to some people, it is my prayer that through Nathans accident, people come to know God. I know God will draw people to him, even through tragedy~ I have seen it before. My prayer is that we come to a place where we see life in a new light. I pray we let walls fall down, and allow God to do extraordinary things. Things only He can do. Oh how my soul desires more of Him. I pray Nathan is able to come out of his coma, be restored and will one day say "the only way I am alive is because of God." No one knows what the future holds for Nathan, but I do believe when Nate recovers, God is going to do some big things with his life. That is my deepest prayer for all of us, especially now. What a story he has....I know he will one day be able to share it with people that may need hope in their lives. His life is already touching many people!
I have some very exciting news!
Nathan is still in very deep coma, but his medical team is not going to sedate him anymore. From here on out, they are going to allow Nathan to gradually come out of his coma. His CAT scans show that Nathan is doing well. He made it through another night, and for that we rejoice. His ICP levels are controlled, but please continue to pray the levels remain low. We are trusting God and giving Him the glory for working in ways only He can do.
It will take a weeks before Nathan will rise out of the coma, and he will remain in TICU for about 6-8 more weeks. He has a long journey ahead of him, but God is already doing miracles! The doctors are VERY encouraged of his progress and results of his CAT scans. As long as they remain low, things will be a lot easier for his future. When we heard all of this positive news, it was like THANK YOU GOD! No matter what the news was, we knew God was in control. I will update you all this afternoon, after we speak with Bethany and the Neurologist examines Nathan. You guys, God is doing miracles in Nathans body! The only explanation for Nathans survival and current condition is GOD! No medical team is able to heal, but God is....and we pray He continues to place his healing hands on Nathans brain injury.
But He said, "The things which are impossible with men are possible with God." Luke 18:27
"And only you can see the good,In broken things You took my heart of stone And you made it home, And set this prisoner free"
This is a song by Bethany Dillion (YouTube it, if you have time.) It is one of my most favorite songs that she has wrote. Almost like the lyrics she wrote, were for Nathan.
And my weary heart?
Who can see everything?
I've fallen so hard
Sometimes I feel so far
But not beyond your reach
I could climb a mountain
Swim the ocean
Or do anything
But it's when you hold me
That I start unfolding
And all I can say is
Whatever's in front of me
Help me to sing hallelujah
Whatever's in front of me
I'll choose to sing hallelujah
The same sun that
Rises over castles
And welcomes the day
Spills over buildings
Into the streets
Where orphans play
And only you can see the good
In broken things
You took my heart of stone
And you made it home
And set this prisoner free
Whatever's in front of me
Help me to sing hallelujah
Whatever's in front of me
I'll choose to sing hallelujah
Friday, October 30, 2009
Nathan has made it through day #5. Thank you, God.
Nathan had a CAT Scan today, and was stable throughout the scan. He still remains in a very deep coma, and is unresponsive. We are waiting for the results of his CAT scans, and I will let you all know the results, just as soon as we get word.
Bethany has slept maybe 10 hours in the past 5 days. Please remember her as you pray for tonight. She needs rest. Pray for a calm sleep, where she can rest in quiet without disturbance. She deserves it, she is really an incredible mom. keep lifting her up.
For those of you who really don't know Nathan that well, here are a few stories that will let you into his heart....
Nathan loves his dogs. The other day, I went to Nathans house to let the dogs out, his shoes were right by the door. For a moment, I thought he was home. When I opened the door, Stuart and Holden (his doggies) were SO excited and barking like crazy. They miss Nate, I really do believe dogs sense when something is wrong. We let them know that everything was going to be alright.
James drove Nathans car on Monday night. He told me that when he opened the door there were tools that Nathan had borrowed to do a job for James. He is always wanting to help James with projects, they are constantly out in the garage together.
Nathan remembers the smallest details. For example, he got me pacifier wipes and hand sanitizer (along with a huge box of diapers) for Shayn, just a few weeks ago. He is always thinking of James and I(and making fun of my germ-phobia.) I want to remember and take with me the small details, not missing anything. To love unconditionally, and forgive often.
This summer, Nate would wake up and often walk over to our house. I would wake up and walk out to the front patio to find Nathan sitting in a rocking chair, just waiting for us to wake up. Not having Nathan around everyday, seems like the rest of our family is not complete. He is apart of James and my family. We sure miss him around here. James and I are praying together, that Gods perfect plan would be revealed. We desire more than anything to see our friend make a full recovery and beat all odds. But most of all, we want Gods best. We want Gods name to be lifted high. "If we knew, what God knows, we would always want what God wants." Dr. Rick Ferguson
ok. I will post the CAT scan results just as soon as we hear. PRAY hard. Pray together. thank you for EVERYTHING. We love you all. Nathan, we are fighting with you. We love you. Remember this accident did not take God by surprise. We rest in hope, He is already in tomorrow.
Proverbs 17:17 "A friend loves at all times. and a brother is born for adversity"
Good morning everyone.
Nathan is stable, and is doing about the same. I will have more information after the Doctors do their rounds and examine Nathan this morning.
Bethany said this, early this morning:
"My heart is smiling because God has once again been merciful and has not take my son home. " Her faith is steady and I hope it encourages all of us, not to lose hope."
We know that Nathans journey ahead, is going to be a long one. The neurosurgeon said it best, "This is a marathon, not a sprint." The initial shock of what has occurred, is dimming as the days progress. I want us all to stick in this fight with Nathan, even if it takes months and months. Nothing about brain injuries, are "quick to heal" As I have been reading and investigating, the process is slow. If God allows Nathan to live through this accident, he has a very long road ahead of him. The doctors tell us that he will need a strong support system. My prayer for Nathan is that He will see life in a new light. We plead for healing, but know God may have other plans for Nathan. God hears our prayers, I am confident He knows each of our desires. I am also confident that sometimes (a lot of times in my life) He chooses to allow things to happen, that I dont understand. things do not always have to make sense to us, all we are called to do, it trust and obey. Faith is walking with our eyes closed. We are definitely walking with our eyes closed. Continue waiting, praying and asking for Gods will to be done~ no matter what the future brings.
I was reading this morning, and it really spoke to me. I shared it with James and we were just SO encouraged. I hope you are encouraged as well, no matter what you are going through.
This is from Davids writings...
Psalm 62:1-2 (the message)
God, the one and only— I'll wait as long as he says.
Everything I need comes from him,
so why not?
He's solid rock under my feet,
breathing room for my soul,
An impregnable castle:
I'm set for life.
Nathan is still fighting and so are we.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tonight, I have to admit, my heart aches more than ever. James and I were able to spend our date night with Nathan.
The doctors put Nathan in a very deep coma. His ICP (inner cranial levels) have been very high today. The only way to really control them, was to place Nathan in a extremely deep coma. When we heard this news, I will admit, my heart sank. BUT, it is for Nathans safety, and he has the best medical team working on him. His temperature and blood pressure are both under control.
Nathan is still not allowed visitors, due to his infection and ICP levels. All we wanted to do is just go sit with Bethany and her mom. Unexpectedly, James and I were able to go back and see Nathan. So, we suited up, and entered the room. James and I walked into his room together, hand in hand. The room was dark and he looked peaceful. It was only the three of us. James lead me to Nathans side, and we grabbed his hand. All we could do is cry and just look at him and watch the monitors. Nathan looks really good, they bathed/shaved him today. He looks more like himself.
In the silence, all I could do is just stare at him. As James began to pray over him, I began to sing hymns. We cried and asked God to hold Nathan. begged God to intercede and show up. I can tell you, God was in that room with us. I know that may sound crazy to some of you, but I don't care, call me crazy. He was there, and He was with us. James and I believe that God is going to bring people to Himself through Nate's accident. I pray that anything that brings God glory, continues to occur. James went on one side of Nathan, I stood on the other side. We held hands and told Nathan that we were there. We reminded him that God was with him, and that we weren't going anywhere. We wept and begged God to heal our friend. We must not forget that we serve a God that always has our best interest at heart. I know that sometimes we don't understand His ways, they are always better than anything we could do. God knew about this accident, this did NOT take God by surprise! Isn't that amazing. God is in control of Nathans conditions. He see's Nathans future, his ICP levels, blood pressure, coma levels...We must let God be God, and just keep praying and fighting for Nate. Don't get me wrong, it was difficult seeing Nate tonight. I hate seeing him on life-support. James and I miss Nate coming over everyday. I miss Nate eating over, hanging out with me on the porch while James is at work. I miss seeing Nate ride his skateboard across the street to our house. I even miss him knocking on the door and asking if I was feeding Shayn. He has such a sensitive heart. Its just hard right now, and that is ok. It is ok to be sad, to cry~we are doing these things, a lot...but with hope.
James and I kept telling him tonight, "Nate, we are here. We love you, brother. We are fighting with you. We believe in you. You are doing great. You look great. All your friends and people near and far are drenching you in prayer. Gods hands are holding you. Keep fighting." We are human, we weep, we want to trade him places. We are in shock. Its so sad, we are so sad. But we are able to do these things with HOPE. We have faith and are optimistic for Nathans future.
Something I thought was really neat that James shared with me tonight:
James told me that when Nathan got into his first accident ( April 2003), Nathan told James that even though he was in his coma, he could hear James talking to him. Knowing that, we are hoping God allows Nate to hear again.
My sister, Michele is one of the wisest women of God, I know. She read this tonight and is praying this for Nathan. She shared it with me and I wanted to share it with you all.
"Do not be terrified, do not be afraid...the Lord your God who is going before you (Nathan), He will fight for you (as HE did in 2003)..Before your very eyes and in the desert you saw how the Lord your God carried you, (Nathan) as a Father carries His son, all the way you went until you reached this place..."
This reached the deepest part of my soul. God will go before us, He will fight for Nathan and He has carried and continues to carry Nathan...
leaving you with this... Although Nathan may not have had the "best"day, he IS still fighting. He is entering day #5, and that is a MIRACLE. God is good. we are trusting and we are not giving up this fight for his life. The doctors are hopeful and Nathan is in the best hands...rest in that. I will update, in the morning.
Good morning. This snow is crazy deep, but so pretty here in Colorado! There is just something about the snow, maybe the silence is what makes it so beautiful.
"God moves in a mysterious way His wonders to perform; He plants his footsteps in the sea And rides upon the storm." William Cowper
In Matthew 14:29-30
Jesus told Peter to come walk out on the water. I can imagine Peter being like "Are you kidding me? Its pitch black out here, the waves are enormous and YOU WANT ME TO WALK TO YOU? Jesus, YOU'RE NUTS." (that would be my reaction, i'm just sayin)
So Jesus said, "Come, Peter." Peter stepped out, walked to Jesus and was totally fine, until he noticed all the waves around him. The second Peters eyes steered away from Jesus, he began to sink. Peter panicked! I would have, to0. Don't we all? Don't we panic when things are not going our way?I know James and I did, when Bethany called us about Nathan's accident.
I can imagine hearing Jesus telling Peter, "PETER LOOK AT ME. DON'T WORRY ABOUT ALL THE WAVES, OR THIS STORM...WALK TO ME, I AM HERE. HERE IN THE MIDST OF THIS STORM. I AM HERE WITH YOU." That just brings chills all over my body. If Jesus can calm the WATERS OF THE SEA, Let us all trust HIM with Nathan's life. I pray that this "storm" does not drown us. That the waves will not consume us. If we keep our eyes on JESUS, we can walk on water. I trust HIM, through this unexpected tragedy with Nathan's life. I pray you will too. Its hard, especially when we really have no medical answers, at this point. Waiting the most difficult part of Nathan's accident. We do not have ANY control over Nathan's outcome, all we have to do is wait and trust. trust God will receive all the glory, no matter the outcome.
I will update everyone again, after the Neurologist examines Nathan. Until then, pray. pray. pray. pray. pray.
Keep fighting Nate. we love you.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Today I was able to spend some time with my family. We have been snowed in, which made me think of Nathan a lot. Whenever it snows, Nate is always over at our house. He and James put the plow on our four wheeler, and go all around plowing. They also start up their snowmobiles, and shred the streets of Denver. Ha! It makes me laugh, but my heart also aches. I am trying to be strong for my husband. James and Nathan are really close, it has been difficult to see James' heart be missing a piece. I believe Nathan has a special calling here on earth. He doesn't know it yet, but I believe this may be God getting his attention. As Bethany told me yesterday, "Kim, God pursues us. This is God pursuing Nathan." James and I got together with friends last night, and we talked about Nate and just prayed for him. We are trusting God has placed Nathan in the best medical facility possible. We surrender our desire, for Gods BEST to be complete.
The past few days, have been rough. Shock, lack of sleep, emotional and physical strain. Last night, we all got some good rest and today woke with a refreshed spirit. I think the most difficult part of this journey, being Nathans friend, has been seeing him unresponsive. Not knowing what the future holds. Walking into Nathans house, letting his dogs out. Its like, you want to call out for him to see if hes home. I tried to talk to him yesterday, as he laid there in his bed. I knew he was in a coma, but I thought, just maybe he'd squeeze my hand. I told Bethany that God is teaching all of us something. One, this life is not our home. God is near. God is good, all He does is good. I am learning that this world has nothing for us. My family and friends are so precious. Little things that use to matter, have suddenly faded away.
After I laid Shayn down for her nap, I went down to spend some time with Bethany and her mom. Each time I am with Bethany, God reveals another peice of Himself. She shared with me this~ When Bethany found out she was having a boy, her grandmother (her dads, mom) wrote Bethany a letter. In that letter her grandmother said "Your son, Nathan, will be a man of God. One that reaches his generation." I know Nathan. I know his story, and I BELIEVE GOD WILL USE NATHAN! Nathan has no idea how incredible he is, and how God will use him one day. One day, he will know. This is God pursuing his heart. He never lets go. Never lets go....
Nathan is still in very critical condition- but stable. His ICP (swelling of the brain) levels are projected to get worse, before getting better. The next 4-7 days are the most critical days for a brain injury patient. In Nathans case, we are desperately asking God to keep the swelling down. If there is swelling around the brain, brain damage occurs. He is in a VERY deep coma. The surgeon said that the CAT scans and ICP levels are NOT matching up, at all. The CAT scans prove that Nathan should not be in this deep of a coma. WE ARE PRAYING the swelling does not get worse. Nathan is still going to remain on Life Support, as he would not survive right now without it.
At this point the Doctor projects that Nathan will have to learn how to think and react cognitively. He will have to learn how to respond, learn how to control his emotions, feelings etc. Everyone is optimistic and are filled with hope. We are very optimistic that Nathan will fight to survive and make a full recovery. But, we are not blocking out the severity of his condition.
The doctors say that he will probably be on life-support for about 17-21 more days (give or take.) I know, I was in shock, too. I said "THAT'S ANOTHER MONTH!" But, as Bethany quickly responded, "at least my son is alive." She is right, Nathan is alive. Doctors said he wouldn't last a few minutes/hours...and look, we are heading into day 4 .
God has a plan, don't know what it is...but I trust His ways above all else. Once Nathan wakes from his coma and is able to get off life-support, he is looking at being at a long term rehabilitation center for at least 6 months to a year. This is going to be a long journey, for everyone. Right now, they are still asking for no visitors. Talking and touching Nathan makes his ICP levels rise. Once the ICP levels are controlled, they will allow visitors. I will let everyone know the second that occurs. All we can do at this point, is pray. Get with your churches, family, friends and pray. I am asking Gods best to be revealed. We want to see God heal Nathan, and see him recover 100%. We just want our friend. Above all else, we ask for God to be near.
Keep praying for Bethany and her sweet mom. They are doing as best as they can. Bethany is resting in Jesus, she is one incredible woman. I am learning the extent of a mothers love....IT'S BOUNDLESS. God is showing up. Mysterious are His ways....perfect they are.
We are hopefuly and optimistic. Nathan is a fighter! KEEP PRAYING. Thanks everyone! LOVE
Good morning everyone. This morning my sister, Michele, sent me this bible verse that she read and reminded her of Nathan and his battle ahead. I hope it encourages you as it has us.
"Do not be afraid or discouraged...For the battle (of Nathan's life) is not yours, but Gods... You will not have to fight this battle take up your positions (seeking Him on your knees); stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you. Do not be afraid or discouraged go out and face tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you. "2 Chronicles 20:15,17
Gods word has brought much peace and rest to us as we wait on God. I am thankful we have Him to run to, He is always waiting for us. WOW. Thank you, Jesus.
An update for this morning:
Nathan has made it through the night and is on day three. It is a MIRACLE~ Thank you, God. The initial report of the doctors was that he would not live longer than a half hour. God has showed up in a mighty way as he is still alive. Nathan's brain injury is very serious. He has one-on-one care with a nurse 24/7 and is receiving excellent care. Nate, is still in a medically induced coma. His status is still critical - but stable. They said that the next 72 hours were critical to his walking away from this injury with the least amount of permenant residual consequences in terms of his quality of life. They need to keep the swelling of his brain down as much as possible. The nurse said last night that they were going to take Nate in for surgery to put a feeding tube in his stomach. Due to his original neck trauma in April 2003 they are having difficulty keeping a feeding tube in place when it is run through his nose. At this point, our prayers are eagerly needed. It has been so difficult to see Nathan in the state he is in. They have a cooling system on his body, to keep his temperature down. When we were with his yesterday, he was so cold. His temperature has been under control, but it is still needing to be constantly monitored. He is still on life-support, and will remain on it until things take a turn. We are praying this journey leads people to God. Nathan is a fighter, like I have said before. He really is strong, but right now pray for this mountain to be moved! I believe. James and I cried last night, cried for Nathan's life, but also for God to heal Nathan. Nathan was over hanging out on Saturday night, and now seeing him in ICU on life-support has changed James and I. God is moving. He is in TOTAL control, and we rest only in that. We trust the medical team that is treating and caring for Nathan. This is one of the top Trauma units, as I have said before. BUT, I, personally, know that God is the ultimate healer. HE knows Nathan's future, and no matter what that is...I pray God receives all the glory.
Bethany and her mom need our prayers as well. Bethany got some sleep last night. Nathan's grandma is here from Louisiana. She has suffered with altitude sickness, but is doing better. Just keep lifting them up and covering them in your prayers.
I will update you all this afternoon.
P.S. There have been people asking how they can help other than their continued prayers. I have suggested making meals, or sending cards. Fresh flowers are great, but nothing can be placed in the ICU with Nathan. If you would like to send Bethany flowers you can send them to James and my house, we will take them over to Nathan and Bethany's house. Thank you all so much for those of you who have already brought us meals and have sent flowers. You are such a blessing to us.
We give Nathan's life to the ONE who holds tomorrow. WOW, isn't that the best place he can be?!
I will update this afternoon. until then, keep praying.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Tonight, Nathan's ICP pressure has decreased. The Doctors are trying to be optimistic at this point. His ICP pressures go from being very high, to being 'stable'. James spoke to some of the firemen from the responding fire-station, this afternoon. They have all reached out and have shown so much care and concern for Nathan. It is incredible, the first responders saved Nathan's life. Nathan was hit by the vehicle only four blocks away from the firehouse. The medical response was very quick and the surgeon told us that it is a miracle that Nathan was not killed on impact. God is good, He has a plan!
I just returned from spending some time with Nathan and Bethany. We are no longer allowed to visit Nathan. Due to Nathans ICP levels (the fluid surrounding the brain & the swelling that is occurring) For the next 72 hours, we are not allowed to go into Nathans room. Seeing Nathan today, really brought reality to light for me. He is stable, but in very critical condition. He is still alive on life support and his temperature is still not where they would like it to be. Nathans ICP levels need to be stable for a few days, before they will try to bring him out of his coma. If Nathan gets better, they will try to remove him from life-support, but this will take our prayers. The doctor told us that he is hopeful, but he isn't promising anything at this point. I told Nathan we were all praying for him, fighting for his life alongside of him. Nathan has had absolutely no sign of activity or movements since his accident, except for what James experienced with Nathan. The doctor said that was "impossible" but as Bethany told me today, "We trust GOD first, doctors next."
Also, Bethany told me something, that will stay with me forever. She said "Kim, in most religions people seek to follow and pursue God. BUT in my faith, I serve a God that pursues US. He chases after HIS children. and Kim, I believe this is God, chasing and pursuing after HIS son, Nathan." I cried as I looked at Nathan. I said, you are right Bethany. This IS God pursuing Nathans life. People may fail us, we are not perfect. But God, HE HAS NEVER FAILED US. Thank you, Bethany, for sharing your faith. I am forever changed.
The Doctor told us with Nathans currently condition, that we must earnestly pray. We need to pray for a miracle, but above all, we need to ask Gods BEST to be revealed.
As I stood beside Nathan, his cold lifeless body made me cry. What is God trying to reveal in this situation? How can we bring Him the most glory? How can we serve Him best at this time? I truly believe we must pray. We must seek Gods face, and not stop. I pray new friendships are made, old ones are mended and renewed. I know that is what Nathan would want. He would want to know how loved he is. He is truly loved. Oh, seeing his precious mommy, touch him and pray for him. It just changes you. At least, it changes circumstances. I have a 5 month old daughter, and her life is everything to us. YET, Bethany reminded me today, Our children are HIS, first. We are just here to point them to God, and what HE chooses for their lives...we must trust, no matter what.
I remember when the shootings happened at Columbine. My parents were out of the country, watching on CNN. My mom told me that my dad grabbed her in the hotel room, as they were unable to reach Michele and I...my dad said "Robin, Kimmie and Michele are not our own. If God chooses to taken them home, we have to trust that is what HE desires. We are only to trust and give all glory to HIM." This is exactly what Bethany wants for Nathan. She wants Nathans life to be RESTORED FULLY, but above all else, Bethany wants GODS WILL TO BE REVEALED!
I am HOPEFUL. The doctors gave us hope, by not giving us bad news. The medical team, is one of the top trauma units in Colorado. So, Nathan is in the best hands medically. He is also in the MAKERS hands, who holds all things, restores all things, and brings HOPE where there is NO HOPE. He sure has in our lives.
Keep praying, the next 72 hours are counting on our EARNEST prayers for Nathans life!
Also, if you would like to bring food or cards. Please email/text us and we will let you know how to do so. Thank you everyone. God is already working. lives being changed.
Nate, KEEP FIGHTING!!!!! Happy Birthday to YOU!
Good morning to everyone. I wanted to share an experience that James had yesterday evening, as well as update you on Nathans status. I will start with James' experience.....
James went to be with Nathan a few times during the night/early morning, yesterday. Although, honestly, Nathan is not doing well at all. Doctors are not giving us very much hope. YET, there is a peace that surpasses all understanding right now. I honestly cant describe it to you. But, its there. We are hopeful. Nathan has not reacted/responded to anyone since the accident occurred. The medical team have yet to see any kind of brain activity, yet, James and I are holding onto this experience~ holding onto a string of hope.
As James sat with Nathan yesterday early evening, no one else was in the room. James told Nathan things, only Nathan would understand/remember. He told Nathan he had to keep fighting. That God has a plan for his life. That we need him, his mom needs him to keep fighting. Secretly, I am sure James was telling him he needed to get better, so they could go snowmobiling this winter ( I know them both better than they think. :) With no response, James just sat there watching him for a while. James proceeded to ask Nathan a few questions, "Nathan do you know I am here? Its me, James. If you can hear me, shrug your shoulders." nothing. A few moments later James said "Nate, its me buddy, its James. I am here with you. If you can hear me, shrug your shoulders." Nathan shrugged his shoulders! James was surprised, because Nathan is in a coma. Nathan hasn't been conscience, since before the accident. James said "Good job." He sat there with Nathan, talked with him a bit longer and when James was going to leave, he said, "Nate, i'm going to leave now. Shrug your shoulders, if you can hear my voice." Nathan shrugged his shoulders!
(I will also add, that in Nathans first accident, Nathan only remembers James being at his side in the hospital. Maybe that is why Nathan responded to James as he did, yesterday.)
Although, this is "impossible" to the medical team, James is VERY confident Nathan heard him and understood. This may give us hope that may not exist right now medically~ but our faith is stronger than medicine. When the medical team gives us reason to lose hope, we MUST surrender that to God, WHO IS MIGHTY TO SAVE! Don't get me wrong, I know God may have other plans to take Nathan home to be with Him. As tragic as that sounds, We are not blocking out what 'could' happen, but while Nathan is alive, we will NOT lose hope. We will NOT give up hope.
Although, Nathan has not responded to any medical teams or anyone else, we believe Nathan did respond on purpose. I thought this was amazing, and wanted to share it with you all.
Nathan is a little in stature,but his heart is so big. He told James and I that we are his brother and sister. We definitely treat each other, as so. You know, no matter if we get annoyed or if we say something that we most likely don't mean, we still love each other at the end of the day! that is what life is about. Love.
A little bit about who Nathan is, especially to James and I:
He is the first one to volunteer whenever James needs ANYTHING. They are always working on a project. Maty, James and Nate, together are constantly taking something apart. So, needless to say, we see Nathan everyday. I have had many conversations with Nathan, about life. About how God has him here for a reason. I reminded Nathan, that no matter what, God will always be enough. Nathan was there when James proposed to me. Nathan actually helped organize the whole amazing event. I will never ever forget Nathans face, the tears and excitement he had for us. BUT, I am sure he was NOT excited that the proposal soon meant~Nathan had to move out! Nathan was James' roommate, for a few years. But, Nathan did not move far, just a few houses away. At first, I was like, COME ON BOYS! You are not boyfriends. But, I will tell you all, it has been a so great getting to know Nathans heart. Nathan has a special heart, and he is always there when anyone needs anything. Or when I cook food! Nathan is willing to help, and is a great uncle to Shayn. He actually holds her, not many boys like babies.
I hope you all get a better picture of who Nathan really is. He is a fighter. A fighter, with a tender heart.
An update as of Tuesday, October 27, 2009. This morning...
He is struggling with an elevated body temperature, and pressure on his brain that is fluctuating. This is not good news, and we are asking God for a miracle. I had a pastor in my life, growing up. His name was Rick Ferguson (he passed away tragically in a car accident.) He and his family have been so influential in my life, as well as the lives of thousands. I remember two things Pastor Rick always told the church, one being, "Obey the Spirit promptly" and "If we knew, what God knows, we would ALWAYS want what God wants." In the desperateness of this tragic situation, that is what I have been praying. 'Ok Lord, Nathan is YOURS. Whatever your will is, I ask you to do. We ask for a miracle, but know your ways are not our ways. your thoughts are higher than our thoughts. We want what you want, no matter the outcome. Just prepare us all for whatever that may be.'
I know Bethany desires her son to make a full recovery, but MORE than that, Bethany desires for Gods will to be done. What a testimony! As a mother, I cant imagine praying "ok God, if you so choose, take my son." Her testimony through the last few days, has clanged my life.
I pray we all stop today, and truly love the ones in our lives. this life is not our own, and I am sorry it often takes a tragedy to get our attention. At least, it has for mine. One moment, Nathan was holding our little girl on our porch, the next moment James wakes me, telling me Nathan is on life-support.Let Nathans life be celebrated today. But above all, I ask Gods perfect plan be revealed. No matter the outcome, I ask that Gods name receive every once of glory. I know that is Bethany's prayer, as well.
"Whatever your faith or lack there of my son desperately needs your prayer" Bethany Dill Christiansen
I am about to go see Nathan, I will update you this afternoon. Until then, keep praying!